He was someone I cherished.
But somewhere along the lines I messed up, I admit. Before all this, he was one of the few I was proud to call my close friends… and we really hit if off well, as friends. But like I said, somewhere along the lines I did mess up, and maybe there were really some decisions I regret making. But like you said if I didn’t do the things I did, maybe six months down the road we would have already tried and broken up. Maybe things would have been worst, knowing that I might have actually lost the closest friend whom I cherished so much – you.
You’re so much more than who you think you are. To me, you’re so much more than I have ever asked for and I love you, so so much. I don’t ever think even a million words can describe how I feel about you because you’re even more than a million words. Okay, sorry for the cringe guys I had to put it out there because there is this one guy whom I cherish so much that I can’t not talk about him. He was always there when things got tough and he was somehow always the first one I called when I was feeling down, even when I didn’t mention that to him a year back. Somehow, he was always the first one that I think about.
But being the stupid girl I am, I messed up. But if I didn’t mess up, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I would have still been the Drey that took people for granted and only thought of myself, because that’s just how I thought a relationship should be. I was selfish.
I guess I still am.
Today was probably one of the worst days of my life. But because of you, today felt a little better. So thank you, for giving up so many things for me and for sacrificing so much. I’m still trying to do the same and I want to do the same. But I’m slowly learning still.
So forgive me, for the mistakes I’m going to make or have already made. Forgive me because we’re still young and we’re still learning. Forgive me because I’m still immature in some ways. Forgive me, because I love you.